When you feel better but your test results say otherwise
Then, like a punch to the stomach, your expectations are shattered.
“Your results show that you have a lot of inflammation and...” blah, blah, blah. That’s it. You tune out. You feel like a failure.
It’s at this moment that you truly feel out of control because it all becomes so real. How you feel and perceive your body is entirely wrong somehow.
But how? It’s your body. You’re quite literally inside of it. Feeling all of it. How can you be so wrong?
Well, I’m here to tell you, my dear, that in a way you aren’t.
If you feel like you are better, and you are experiencing improvement, then you are! Yes, my dear, you are!
There is so much more that goes on beyond what a test can tell you
Your body is extremely complex and a test or two cannot possibly capture the entire moving picture.
Here's an analogy: Imagine your body with its Crohn’s diagnosis as a complex puzzle. The kind with over 200 pieces, that takes days to complete. Okay, now imagine that your digestive system is the complete picture once the puzzle is finished. And only when the puzzle is completely done, do your tests come back “normal.” Following me?
Well in order for you to get those “normal” results, you have to get to work on this hard puzzle and it’s going to take time. Perhaps you have figured out the bottom corner and it shows the left side of your colon. How exciting! You are getting the puzzle done but yes, you have more to go.
Oh, and now you have another section and can see your small intestine. Whoohoo! But of course, the entire picture is still not complete. Well, halfway into completing your puzzle you are due for a test. But your puzzle is not complete, therefore, your test results show up as undesirable.
But of course, it does! Your puzzle is not complete! It shouldn’t negate that you have two sections done and that you feel accomplished and feel improvement. Feeling my drift?
Keep moving forward
So, keep pushing forward, my friend. Keep working on the puzzle! Just because you got bad results does not mean you are not improving. It does not mean you will never get better.
So, don’t be so hard on yourself. What you are feeling is not fake, but rather entirely real. Improvement is an improvement.
Keep your head up, and keep working on your puzzle. You may be closer to finishing than you think!
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