Last year I had to take an antibiotic course for an infection. After the course finished I started having multiple bowel movements with mucus and cramps. Everyone told me that it was just ibs and nothing serious but after a lot of back and forth i got a sigmoidoscopy. They found ulcers and the biopsy revealed it to be follicular proctitis. I was given mesalamine at that time but i did not take it because i was terrified of medicine because to me it all started because of meds. So fast forward to present, it have been a little more than a year and i am having the same symptoms. Well i am actually doing a bit better, especially if i am not stressed as k suffer for anxiety. I am also not on any medications. But since the diagnosis i am being haunted by the face that i am just wasting the little bit of good luck that i have by not taking the meds. I spend days looking for alternatives but i dont find any. All of this might seem silly but i really am terrified of taking the drugs. Plus my father has cancer and my mother is also suffering from severe anxiey disorder, so basically everything is wrong. There is also no hospital in my state do if i do have any sort of adverse reaction i am done for. There is also no blood in my stool as far as i can see and my condition isnt really that bad but what i am terrified about is the fact that i am letting the disease progress by not taking the medication.I would greatly appreciate all the feedback as i am genuinely terrified to death about all of this mess.