Was recently diagnosed after years of gp appointments, referrals ect. With diverticular disease and diverticulitis. As well as IBS. Food is just a love hate, love to eat it hate to pass it. Laxatives are just demoralising and embarrassing even for oneself. Scared to go anywhere, as anxiety plays a big part in my health. On a morphine painkiller, very low dose but that doesn't really touch it. Tried to self medicate, CBD but that only works for a certain time, and didn't like it as felt high off of it. And don't want anything else messing with my brain. As also had a lot of head trauma in my life. I'm 48 live on my own with my little pet Shih Tzu, Ted. Feel bad most days as I just cannot do the things he wants me to do, torn between donating him to a better home, and a very deep love for him. Just struggling with this, as I have done for many many years as we all have. So of anyone, anyone can recommend, relate, pass judgement whatever whether constructive or not. I'll certainly listen. Amd always willing to try new things. As this is just horrible and takes away you, your freedom, your liberty. Not feeling sorry for myself, not at all, blessed in a way to still be here. But also in a sense not blessed, if ya feel me. Anyway newbie to this, even though signed up a while back I think, can't remember, who's keeping track right π€―
Prayers for everyone πππ