"I did something that I needed to do...had a good cry today. The tears were of both relief and the fear of the unknown. In three short weeks, I'll have a permanent end colostomy from the descending colon with a protectomy. The rational brain knows this is the best possible thing for me, and yet, the controlling part of my personality is really dreading all of the unknowns. Any words of support or sage wisdom(s) are very much appreciated."