Hi CDGurl, as cliche as it may sound, there are many who have felt and feel as you do. Just like Brooke said, I too try to find a silver lining... I call it a win. Whenever something feels too heavy because of my health, I look for a win that was had and try to focus on that. Sometimes I get lost in the "meh" of things and need to refocus. I hope you can find a win soon. And when you do, I hope you share it with us! - Holland (inflammatoryboweldisease.net team member)