Hi, I have a temporary ileostomy or so I think it is. I have only a metre of small bowel left and we are supposed to have 7 metres. Straight out with it, I think if my Crohn's comes back, it's going to kill me. I am only 46 and I last had a flare 5 years ago. I don't want to die, I'm writing this at 3:00am after keep having to get up every hour and a half throughout the night, I'm at my wits end, but I repeat, I don't want to die. I have tried azathioprine, Remicade and mercaptopurine, all for my body to reject these drugs. Remicade was my last chance... any thoughts would be gratefully appreciated.